Sunday, March 28, 2010
You know it's time to move on, when...
Your favourite shoes get stolen!!
I'm still quite puzzled why someone would wanna steal my shoes when they're so old. Hmmm. First time losing something that meant much to me! It's abit sad but it's still kinda hilarious that someone actually stole shoes from your house. I was thinking of replacing them completely but hesitated. Haha. It's weird when such decisions are made for you through the weird outcome of events. Move along!
(although i think im still secretly hoping it's hidden somewhere at home. Opps.)
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Saturday, March 27, 2010
Today, I found out the reason why I never get played as the defender in matches.
Then I started to think. I was thinking that I needed to start doing things I'm good at, or rather I think I'm good at. That way, I can find more meaning and purpose in life. I mean everyone needs a reason or a purpose to carry yourself through life, right?
I used to have one purpose in life, my whole life literally revolved around it but it seems so faded away now. Sometimes I wished I had people to pull me back before I really drifted away from that purpose this far. But deep down, I knew it was just cos I wasn't strong enough to hold on by myself and now have to accept the consequences knowing I can't do much about it anymore because I'm just too tired trying on my own.
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Monday, March 22, 2010
Life is unpredictable. Really.
One moment we can have everything, only to lose it all the next moment.
Therefore, we must treasure what we have now I guess?
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Sunday, March 14, 2010
I realised there are so many random things I used to like to do a lot and have stopped doing. Watching fireworks, wandering around by myself snapping photos, lazing my fingers on the piano playing whatever melody comes to my mind, finding good food places, eating ice cream/chocolates when I'm down, stoning at the airport, exploring punggol. These are just a few to name.
We should never forget these little things, no matter how random they are. Because they bring little bits of happiness to us. I should start exploring my favourite places soon!
Last week, my men had finally passed out from their course. I looked back and realised how time had passed so fast. My life really feels like it just revolves around army. It's very weird everytime people ask me "How's army been for you this week?". I don't really know what to say actually because it's really hard to explain most of the time. Like this week, I got backstabbed by a friend to my superior. I felt very sad because we had gone through so much. He felt guilty about it and told me the next day what he did.
Friendships. Hmm.. I guess as we grow older the number of friends decrease, but we also realise who are the ones that really matter to us and that will hang on beside us through thick and thin. Honestly, I missed the times when I had so many friends to keep in contact with but these days it's sad when the number of people you talk to outside camp during the week can be counted with a single hand. Thank God for a few nice friends in camp though.
I never expected myself to be at a dating class. However, that's exactly what happened on friday afternoon! All of us got sent for this dating workshop and it was seriously lame. Okay fine, some of it made sense. Haha! But no thanks, not into those kinda "picking up girls" lifestyle.
Okay, back to camp now. Long week ahead..
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Sunday, March 07, 2010
The past week had been quite tough and challenging on many aspects.
I realised I'm was just not good enough a motivator nor encourager. I just stood there, said my share of words and didn't know what to do next when they were in their lowest moment. I had failed. I felt really bad about it, not being able to help much. Sometimes I just wished I had the power to change things. Can't live in peace knowing that there are so many people with problems around me and especially so if their well-being depended on the decisions I made.
Today wasn't a very pleasant day too, getting recalled and rushed back to camp on an early sunday morning. I had to miss service too. I hate missing services, even if it means going alone too.
This is such a pointless post. Don't really know what to look forward to next actually.. I need more purpose in life.
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