Tuesday, July 11, 2006
okay, i admit i can't cope. i can't cope with my studies and my other stuffs. and i seriously need help. :( at this rate i'm going to go nowhere. i can just kiss vjc goodbye.
i don't know why i'm having such a low morale. i feel i am just lagging so far behind. i'm not like before when i was able to cope so well.
i just feel so pressurized. time is pressing hard on me. people's expectations of me are increasing. 6 points here and there. arghh. i've had enough. my parents want to to get 7A1s by the way. -.-" prelims are already coming and i am not prepared.
i just feel so helpless. like utterly helpless. having a physics teacher that has not taught you 50% of what you ought to know. spending english lessons doing nothing. having no idea about history. not knowing how to do TYS geog questions even when there's a textbook to refer to. not even knowing how to do EMATHS, of all subjects. this is so frustrating! to know that you don't know, the feeling is TERRIBLE.
oh man. the list goes on. i can't just rely on only one subject which is my amaths. and my amaths isn't going well apparently. sigh sigh sigh.
i wish somebody can associate with the way i'm feeling. i wish i could have someone to literally spur me on. i wish i could have private tutors for all my subjects. i really wish someone could help me with my studies. i wish someone could help me with my homework. the amount of homework is killing me. wishes, wishes and wishes. unrealistic wishes.
i've realised my appetite's gone down too. i'm skipping meals here and there. not finishing my food at most times at home. eating only junk food.
i can't carry on at this pace. :(
i'm sorry for this sudden outburst of feelings. i just had to let it out. forgive me. i'm no superman.
God will make a way, when there seems to be no way.
Posted at 10:26 PM
