Tuesday, May 16, 2006

mid years are finally over.

and im in no state to rejoice.

yes. i FAILED TWO SUBJECTS SO FAR.

i failed my geog paper2 and got 40something only according to miss sharma.

AND i failed my chem overall. 49.2!! argh!!! this is really depressing. i really wish it's isn't true. how on earth can i fail chemistry?!!!

i mean it's not like i didn't pay attention, skip all my homework, didn't study blah blah. i mean last year i admit i did not have a clue about chemistry but i still passed!! this year at least i knew more but i failed!!!

im really still in a state of shock. in my upper sec the only subject i ever failed is CHINESE. yes. CHINESE. i would never fail any subject. but now it's not one BUT TWO. who knows if there might be more? i mean it's not like my other subjects did very well.

yes yes. i am going to double my l1r5 from CA1. confirm hit above 20. and this is like the most important exam before prelims? my goodness. everybody's improving while here i am DEPROVING.

WHY? WHY? WHY? i asked myself that question so many times but i still don't know. this is really not the best time to be failing any subjects or coming close to failing.

sigh. i've lost my confidence, high hopes, big dreams and all.

NEVERMIND. that still does not restrict me from rejoicing in the Lord! no, im not going to blame God or anybody this time. fail or pass, F9 or A1, ITE or JC i believe God wants the best for me. :)

for the moment, i shall just keep this to myself and go out and relax and all. i only plan to tell my parents next week when the official results are out! haha! i wonder what their reaction will be. i mean, seriously.

actually, something just changed my mood. it was just this 1 email that changed it all. in it was a reminder that...1/100 INFINITE JUSTICE GUNDAM IS SELLING TML!!!! WAHAHAHAHHAH. THE LIMITED EDITION ONES. IM SO GONNA RUSH DOWN TO TOWN AND BUY. haha. and to those people who thought i was over with gundam. IM SORRY. it's not over yet. :D

I SHALL START DOING THE LAMEST THING ANYONE COULD DO. start doing revision for o's today. -.-"

Posted at 10:38 AM