Monday, February 06, 2006

today a whole strings of problems came by. AGAIN. i have not been doing well for my tests. it's not the usual i would get. haix. because of the summary test i am going to get a B FOR ENGLISH CA1 LEH! OMG MAN. i've only gotten a B3 as a lowest once from sec1 till now. and now it's on the verge of becoming a b4.

i have to face up to reality. i aint that great anymore. maybe im taking studies too seriously it seems. but i have to admit im very slack this year and im worried. it's been a long time since my parents bugged me to go do my work. that alone spoke something. maybe it's my lack of aspiration to go anywhere? maybe it's because of training? i really dont know.

i reacted quite badly after receiving results of two tests today. the first thing that came to my mind was. TUITION. oh yes. after school i rushed to parkway centre to go find tuitions. -.-" i really wonder which kid actually bothers or rather is desperate to go tuition. the timings dont really fit thou. i may consider. english oh english. what has happened to my poor english. no standard at all. at least compared to other people that performs better.

i was in for a rude shock today before i was on my frantic search for tuitions. i left my spikes in vj pe dept since last year before i went for holiday. -.-" and i only realised it last night. right. at first it was missing. i was so sad and confused. maybe not. it wasnt the first time i lost my spikes. probably the 5th or 6th time. by the grace and divine timing of God i managed to get it back after a second visit to vjc. it was so zhun can? it's really the work of God teaching me to trust in Him.

i realised vjc is full of dunman high people. what happened to the victorians? vjc was meant for vs students. i guess it aisnt so for now. maybe that's why i have doubts about going there. but i really love victoria. i really love the victorian spirit. i doubt it will ever be replicated as much in vjc. vs is an amazing school.

how weird. i've been jumping from one topic to another in just so few paragraphs. the conclusion-a lack of organisation skills. LOL. just kidding.

my school day ended with a rather long training. from 3.30-7. it's been a longgggg time since i last laid my feet on the jump pit. madness. had to jump like 50times today?! and it was no ordinary jump, we had to jump over the hurdle!

my old fears were dug up. i think i have a phobia of those hurdles ever since the last time i tripped over one at vjc while jumping at the pit and fell facedown. facedown? haha. reminds me of last sat!

this time the hurdle was much higher. it was up to my hip about 1m+?! my jaw dropped. i had never cleared that high before. this time it wasnt one but TWO. so it's like doing long jump at the same time clearing a box which is 1m high and about 50-70cm wide. words cant explain the horror i had. i had to face my fears. yes. i managed to clear them. it was like an achievement. been able to over the mindsets.

mindsets. mindsets. mindsets. these things that hinder us from achieving our highest potential and limits our capibility. how true it is both spiritually, mentally and physically. with much emphasis on the first.

mindsets. it has got me thinking. has it gotten you?

Posted at 9:48 PM