Friday, September 30, 2005
it's the first time this year or perharps in ages that i have not used the computer in the school week. determination i guess. seeing how so many other people could do so questions me why cant i as well. even though there has been a significant lack of that "nessecity" which is the computer this week, i somehow rather dont feel much.
perharps the week's been too busy and fast for myself. keeping myself away from the computer indeed gives me more time. i had hoped the time would be spent more on my studies. but in actual fact it went to playing the piano and quiet time. :D maybe it's a good thing. or maybe i would even have to ban myself from the piano. once you start playing you cant stop but want more of it. weird isnt it? for someone who hated the piano to someone who appreciates its existence.
i have serious doubts about my upcoming examinations. the thing is i do not feel confident at all. i am just so demoralised at my lack of knowledge of all the things i should know. doing all those past papers only to find myself stuck every few questions. i hate that feeling. staring at the large magnitude of chapters i have to cover within this limited period of time. oh my. this is one feeling no one would want. this helpless feeling. it's only a mere one week more. i dont know what to do. so much stress and tension to maintain the top few positions in class. now i look back and realise how good or maybe not so good were the times i was the last few percentages in the level.
the least i could do now is at least study and of course trust in God!
today's the last day of the month of september. september's certainly a hotspot for birthdays isnt it? that dwindles the signifance of your birthday somehow compared to one who has the month to him/herself. maybe im wrong. oh well. once again happy birthday to all september babies. =)
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